|FIRST LEGIT SCENERY PICTURE |
IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY
especially since I'm not really a painter and scenery is mostly painted...
Forbidden WordThe word I'm looking for is however you'd describe that funny feeling you have when suddenly after you've been cold and dark and alone for a long time, you're surrounded by people who care about you. Who notice when you're upset and show genuine worry when you cry, and don't tease you to make it worse. It's that feeling that builds up in your heart and makes your eyes leak tears, not because you're sad, but because you're not sad, and you remember what it was like to be sad, and you can't really believe that you're not anymore; can't really believe how much better it is.Forbidden Word by wh1t3-t19Lightning
I know that the word I'm looking for doesn't exist. There's no possible collection of letters and sounds that could even attempt to communicate how much any of it means to me. The closest I can get is that it's some exceedingly powerful variant of platonic love and undying loyalty. This is how I feel when I think about where I am, who I am and what I have now.
These are the Scars of MineStrange, is it notThese are the Scars of Mine by wh1t3-t19Lightning
How you're more alone in the company of friends
Than in that of enemies.
Silence then, in the presence of those for whom you care:
It is a different sort of ache.
They put their headphones on
Close out the world, close out the background noise--
Close out you.
You have only the choice then, to do as they do.
It seems a waste--as you perceive, anyway.
You who find being alone boring and somewhat painful.
Scarred soul, marked as such that they are never visible,
Hard to know they exist for those who can't feel them burn.
These are the scars of loneliness.
These are new developments.
Before you would withdraw as they do now,
No thoughts to it.
But perhaps now when you know,
Now after being alone for so long,
Now when you've finally found a place where you feel welcome,
Now you feel the true force of loneliness.
Before you knew not what you lacked
But after feeling warmth and acceptance you fear the return of cold,
Angry at those who don't see your pain,
Cursing the plag
|People need to understand this.|
|As of right now, I only take points. At some point I will have a paypal, but until then, only point comms are open.|
If you’re not sure what my current skill level is with your character/subject matter is, ask me. I may offer you a discount if I’m not particularly good at it, to compensate for lower quality.
ALL BACKGROUNDS ADD 65 TO THE COST unless the subject matter of the piece is a landscape (no characters).
Digi: 60 (detailed, (DC) cleaned sketch, 75 )
I will erase “hairy” lines somewhat digitally but I will not traditionally. DC sketches are fully cleaned and look like regular lineart, though perhaps a little scratchy. DEFAULT IS COLOR BUT NO SHADING.
DC sketch of a head and neck of a character, possibly torso (ehh…), fully colored, shaded and detailed.
DC sketch unless specified otherwise. Extra 50 for “proper lineart” because it takes forever. Fully shaded.
(No current examples yet, but like the bust style)
Bust: 80 (time limit 1 hr)
Fullbody: 100 (time limit 1.5 hr; with BG 2-2.5 hr)
Landscape (not the same as the usual 40 for background, this is if you want a picture of a landscape): 150 (time limit 1.5 hr)
First two of this one for landscapes:
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I am female just in case you haven't ever met a girl with short hair before.
made by zephhyr
Hi, I'm Mad and I'm an annoying little high school nerd. I originally was called Whitetip when I got my account, so I respond to that as well as any of the other names listed above. The name came from a velociraptor in a movie I was obsessed with as a little kid that changed my life and who I would eventually become. Who knew dinosaurs were so important? Heh heh.
I'm a tad bit crazy and prone to "Spock moments" of cold hard logic, but I'm honestly a pretty sympathetic person and highly sensitive to the emotions of others.
I tend to swear a lot, especially when I'm tired or angry or bored (which is all the time), so my apologies in advance.
I do have some issues: I suffer from food allergies and several minor learning/mental disorders. Don't worry, nothing horrific like schizophrenia or whatnot. Just a few deficiencies in areas of my brain that make certain skills challenging (like staying focused or starting tasks) and a couple anxiety disorders. That sounds serious but only because it's a clinical term. OCD is technically an anxiety disorder. That one is mostly dead but its ghost causes me to be highly attentive to patterns and orders and rules. I also have a lot of general anxious energy. This is totally normal to manifest in my artwork. In the rare cases it turns nasty I know where to get help. Thank you for your concern.
POLICY ON FAVS
So um, I really don't like favs. They don't help me at all, and they seem like only an excuse to be able to get back to the artwork, which you won't come back to anyway, because I'm constantly improving and everything else is obsolete, so I don't think that's a legitimate excuse to fav unless it's an adoptable or auction. Just my opinion. If I drew it for you, please just ask and I'll give you the link to sta.sh to download it if I have downloads turned off. So if you'd please, don't press the fav button unless the picture means something to you, or something about it is really, really good.
And tell me what it is! Please! Right now I'm at a point in my life where I have the energy and drive to improve almost daily; I'm young enough to know I'm nowhere near a pro and mature enough to know that new things and challenges will help me grow. What I'm not is psychic. I don't know what you guys think looks good, and I need that feedback sometimes. That's the whole reason I'm here at all; I want to grow.
If you really must fav something for whatever reason, I'd really appreciate a comment on why you faved it. What made it stick out to you? If you can't think of anything other than "it's good", then perhaps you shouldn't be faving it.
Just something to think about.
I'm no serious gamer, but I'm fully capable of playing the following games and playing them well:
-Pokemon (any of the traditional trainer ones and Mystery dungeon: those weird sidegames like Pokemon ranch don't count)
-Legend of Zelda (wii only) (Twilight Princess I'm almost done with and already finished Skyward sword)
-Animal Crossing (Wild World and New Leaf)
These TV shows/series/franchises/whatever you'd call them I really really like (I do not consider myself "a part of the fandom". I work independently and am bored by passing memes. I also do not develop crushes on characters, nor do I "ship" pairings.)
-Pokemon (no duh, it's listed above)
-Star Wars (but not Star Trek)
-Tron (not as much as others though)
-Transformers (movies [though I loathe Michael Bay] and the recent TV show, Prime)
-Major Crimes (lmao I'm such a dorkface)
I don't plan to pursue a career in art but I'll be damned if I ever give it up. I feel cleansed and at peace when I draw; it drains all the black, angst-y emotions out of me and lets me fill the void with whatever feelings I please instead. I have the same thing with writing.
I'm mainly inspired by seeing other people be inspired, which is one of the reasons I frequent this site. I love having other minds around to bounce ideas off of.
My other Account~ (Let me tell you a secret: I'm never on that account, and the three deviations that are there are REALLY OLD.)
My fanfiction.net account: Shockwave's-Apprentice www.fanfiction.net/u/4648845/S… Story links at bottom of page. (Let me tell you another secret: I don't post there that often either.)
Flight Rising Account: flightrising.com/main.php?p=la…
My YouTube account~ TheStaticDragon (Virtually nothing there until I get proper screen capture software :/)
The Kiwi (my brother) :
Strawberries (people who know me offline):
Pears (loyal people <3):
Apples (we're glued together):